Thursday, June 9, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Persistent ailments
Ahhh. traces of procrastination.
Jotting mental notes. Compiling it. Materializing them.
Ahh. I'm in Law Library. Too much activities in my mind. Reflections. Self-condemnation. Self evaluation. Self-righteous. Organic chemistry. Calculations. Alternate hypothesis. Freedom. ahh
The big day is near but I'll rock on the big day.
Consistency is indeed a virtue, for it makes or breaks.
Have been bogged down by fatigue the past few days.
Oh God, I surrender my desires into Your hands.Booyea!!
"Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men."
Colossians 3:23
Jotting mental notes. Compiling it. Materializing them.
Ahh. I'm in Law Library. Too much activities in my mind. Reflections. Self-condemnation. Self evaluation. Self-righteous. Organic chemistry. Calculations. Alternate hypothesis. Freedom. ahh
The big day is near but I'll rock on the big day.
Consistency is indeed a virtue, for it makes or breaks.
Have been bogged down by fatigue the past few days.
My attention level is almost zero. Stinks, when you so badly need to study.
Oh God, I surrender my desires into Your hands.Booyea!!
"Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men."
Colossians 3:23
Thursday, March 31, 2011
BOO
Gotta be a man with PRINCIPLEs
Not a man with words and has no actions into it that utterly carries no meaning at all.
Working consistently for 4 weeks seem to pay off a little bit. Exhausting, Mentally drained.
All of these comes to a point where you are actually sick of studying.
Just can't seem to focus very much.
To a certain point I even feel depressed,to think that I know my stuff. but that was not very helpful as well.Sigh.
ONLY week 5 of school.
Perhaps again being a mediocre has been always and always been very demanding.
LORD I yearn for your grace and mercy.
Depending on your strength
Psalm 145:3
"Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise;
his greatness no one can fathom"
Not a man with words and has no actions into it that utterly carries no meaning at all.
Working consistently for 4 weeks seem to pay off a little bit. Exhausting, Mentally drained.
All of these comes to a point where you are actually sick of studying.
Just can't seem to focus very much.
To a certain point I even feel depressed,to think that I know my stuff. but that was not very helpful as well.Sigh.
ONLY week 5 of school.
Perhaps again being a mediocre has been always and always been very demanding.
LORD I yearn for your grace and mercy.
Depending on your strength
Psalm 145:3
"Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise;
his greatness no one can fathom"
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Pluggin' IN
Being back to study in Brisbane has been like being caught in a draft, churning an at exhausting pace.Its been three weeks only and I carp much about it. Perhaps being a mediocre always has been very demanding.Lol.
Lifegroup time, Sisters time, Meeting people etc. Very addictive, and though you may feel at times you wanna cry out that the pace you are picking is so friggin’ slow, the loveliness back here in Brissie softens that longs within you and you continue being brushed away by the hurricane of activities, but ENJOYING IT ALL THE SAME TIME. Thats why. Life goes on.
Enjoy Life.
It is almost like you yearn for exhaustion. AHH what irony LOL
Lifegroup time, Sisters time, Meeting people etc. Very addictive, and though you may feel at times you wanna cry out that the pace you are picking is so friggin’ slow, the loveliness back here in Brissie softens that longs within you and you continue being brushed away by the hurricane of activities, but ENJOYING IT ALL THE SAME TIME. Thats why. Life goes on.
Enjoy Life.
It is almost like you yearn for exhaustion. AHH what irony LOL
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Holding Nothing Back
So Refreshing yet I do still struggle.
A new environment yet I still carp about petty things.
If is God-given opportunity, why would I waste it. Be thankful. Don't let things get in your way. Why should I fear when I believe God will help me to make the most of what is mine.
I'm so alive right now. Thank You Yesus
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Self-Evaluation.
Its been two months since i last blog. Couldn’t find the time to do it. After a scorching time of appraising myself of what i have done the last year of 2010. I’ ve really thanked God for all the many things He has done for me and the many friends that edifies me to make me a much more better person. I guess =-=.LOL
Getting on top of the world in everything. The best grades. The best university. The best brand. The best guitar.
Anything you can name it with the word best in it. Getting the limelight.Attention. Status.
Staggering much.
I thought getting in a better university would quench all my satisfaction. I used to have the mentality of getting the best of the best would actually give me these nice emotions but dispersed off after a bit. One thing I learned is that as we seek him, even with our filthy lives, God molds and breaks us. There was a stage of time that I’m still struggling with all these emotions, part of me was broken and I’m evenly depressed. For His grace is sufficient, I’m going through these torrid times of self searching and try to evaluate my main motives, I believe that God sees the heart and the desire to live for Him. Going to the best university is not wrong at all. Going to the best university with the wrong motives are way far apart of the previous statement. Through all these predicament albeit to all my wrong motives, i finally realised that God is in total control no matter WHAT. God already has my next job all set up and planned out for me. All i have to do is simply wait for His timing to bring it to me. This is where I have to learn how to have complete faith in the Lord to do all of this for me. It is a wake-up call for me. Right now I have two choices of going to uni. It is a matter of staying back the same uni or transferring my credits to another. Lord, help me to be a wiser person so i can make fairly good enough decisions in future.Amen laaa =D
Results, spiritual milestone, popularity, and self-condemnation for inflating myself. All of these words have been quoted to me before through messages and sermons.
Before i even go to Australia to study, I’m not even sure of going because I always say i study for God. A very typical answer from a confused Christian like me for that period of time. Sometimes i feel my life has been dedicated to the pursuit of my best capabilities and academically, living the boundary between living and studying for God and just living like one piece of nuisance just to get myself satisfied or perhaps pride or maybe self-righteousness. I wondered of all these has consumed me. If i really do, today you won’t even see me speaking to you. I'll be loitering around spouting nonsense to people LOL
Speaking about serving in a church. My desire of playing the guitar never fades but it seems that i always have the wrong intention of playing. FAME. SPOTLIGHTS. COOL. I thanked God for not choosing to play the guitar for church. The music was superbly fantastic in the church i’m attending and it makes me wanna play more merely of the pure and corny reason =MUSIC. I believe I got so much to discover.A hand I could lend another. That’s why i’m serving as an usher. It really brings out my personality. I really do felt that way in a good way.
With eyes open wide. Mean all that it can.I don't need a sign to actually to be wakened, I just need to begin. Life is short and quickly passing by, seasons are really changing from time to time, i rweally believe God will help me to make the most of what is mine.
The year 2011. IT will be a fruitful one and the many years to come. BOOYEA!!
Getting on top of the world in everything. The best grades. The best university. The best brand. The best guitar.
Anything you can name it with the word best in it. Getting the limelight.Attention. Status.
Staggering much.
I thought getting in a better university would quench all my satisfaction. I used to have the mentality of getting the best of the best would actually give me these nice emotions but dispersed off after a bit. One thing I learned is that as we seek him, even with our filthy lives, God molds and breaks us. There was a stage of time that I’m still struggling with all these emotions, part of me was broken and I’m evenly depressed. For His grace is sufficient, I’m going through these torrid times of self searching and try to evaluate my main motives, I believe that God sees the heart and the desire to live for Him. Going to the best university is not wrong at all. Going to the best university with the wrong motives are way far apart of the previous statement. Through all these predicament albeit to all my wrong motives, i finally realised that God is in total control no matter WHAT. God already has my next job all set up and planned out for me. All i have to do is simply wait for His timing to bring it to me. This is where I have to learn how to have complete faith in the Lord to do all of this for me. It is a wake-up call for me. Right now I have two choices of going to uni. It is a matter of staying back the same uni or transferring my credits to another. Lord, help me to be a wiser person so i can make fairly good enough decisions in future.Amen laaa =D
Results, spiritual milestone, popularity, and self-condemnation for inflating myself. All of these words have been quoted to me before through messages and sermons.
Before i even go to Australia to study, I’m not even sure of going because I always say i study for God. A very typical answer from a confused Christian like me for that period of time. Sometimes i feel my life has been dedicated to the pursuit of my best capabilities and academically, living the boundary between living and studying for God and just living like one piece of nuisance just to get myself satisfied or perhaps pride or maybe self-righteousness. I wondered of all these has consumed me. If i really do, today you won’t even see me speaking to you. I'll be loitering around spouting nonsense to people LOL
Speaking about serving in a church. My desire of playing the guitar never fades but it seems that i always have the wrong intention of playing. FAME. SPOTLIGHTS. COOL. I thanked God for not choosing to play the guitar for church. The music was superbly fantastic in the church i’m attending and it makes me wanna play more merely of the pure and corny reason =MUSIC. I believe I got so much to discover.A hand I could lend another. That’s why i’m serving as an usher. It really brings out my personality. I really do felt that way in a good way.
With eyes open wide. Mean all that it can.I don't need a sign to actually to be wakened, I just need to begin. Life is short and quickly passing by, seasons are really changing from time to time, i rweally believe God will help me to make the most of what is mine.
The year 2011. IT will be a fruitful one and the many years to come. BOOYEA!!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
DOne
I'm done for this second semester.
80th celebration
THE FAITHFUL album launching this Sunday. CANT WAITT!
Going Witsundays next week
Then back to mahh home sweet homeee. PENANG
Life has never been so good
80th celebration
THE FAITHFUL album launching this Sunday. CANT WAITT!
Going Witsundays next week
Then back to mahh home sweet homeee. PENANG
Life has never been so good
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